callum johnnnn

mk

I love it how you delete and block ne on Facebook, seriously what the fuck? I don’t really understand you fucking anymore. You should realize, I love you and I’m sorry for being a cunt on the phone, and via text, but honestly I can’t handle what I say, when I’m drunk, only reason why I’m posting this is cos it’ll be the only bloody way I can tell you. But you know, i love you honestly, I’m just a fucked up jerk? I admit I fucked up seriously. I love you and no one else.

Not going to hold back or anything.

I honestly don’t want to live anymore, nothing I look up to is there anymore, I’m over getting lead on, but I can’t stop :( I cry myself to sleep most nights, I’m the biggest failure to you, but I still manage to work my way around that, I never make you smile anymore, all I feel is my heartbreaking more.. I just truly want everything back to normal, I’m sick of this, lies to my face, over and over. You don’t understand how much I love you.., that’d never be good enough :’c

Going to vent before I go crazy.

I hate how people rip into me cos I don’t understand one thing, but you know, I’m not the smartest boy going around, could say it in words I could understand.

I hate getting treated like I’m some spastic fuckhead, sorry if I don’t like being snapped at.

I try my hardest, and that’s not good enough.

I’m basically a failure in everyones eyes.

I wish people would understand how I felt and ask what’s wrong, but no that’s to fucking hard for them.

To be actual honest, I dont know how much more I can take.

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(via withyouiseeclearly)

deleting gayumblr and alot of people + twitter :)

:)

Everyone can go fuck themselves and fuck off!